November 1st, 2009
Ends POSTED AT 05:17 PM in Love, Life ..but I get the strangest feeling that you've gone away. [I wish I could be every little thing you wanted, all the time.] --- Yeah, I'm fine. Will go to my cousin's birthday dinner later at Chilli's at Greenbelt 5. I was allowed to be out till 10 PM. Tomorrow, it's back to reality. --- I feel... strange... like something has been lifted from my shoulders. I promised myself I will never do anything that I can't be proud of. I will not add to my ten thousand list of 'Things That Make Me Cringe.' That includes avoiding certain people altogether, and sharpening my senses with focus and will. Focus is key. Focus is key. Cold turkey is the way to go, for most things. Yep, quit you cold turkey is the way the heavens would have me do it. --- I still remember Peter but it's a matter-of-fact remembering na. Not so much mush and heartache and all that jazz as before. It's factual remembering, not emotional anymore. I remember the technicalities, the events... but I can't remember the feeling anymore. I guess I am finally learning to let go by focusing on other things. --- I will not exchange this rehab for the world. Reading: YM Messages Listening to: Every Little Thing by Dishwalla Feeling: surreal infidel?
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