Speechless
POSTED AT 12:42 PM in Love

theletdown

I don't have much to say except that I'm currently circumventing the rejection/abandonment I felt yesterday. I think I'm finally winning over it, because it just doesn't hurt as much as I would have expected. But who, in the first place, abandoned me?

I can't seem to find an answer.

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U: I saw how your family treated you- they loved you so much that they didn't know how to handle you. So I wondered to myself, 'where is the rejection coming from?'

Me: I don't know. I just don't know.

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My mom is visiting me later.

Basically, I asked her to bring me a shitload of fruits. Hehehe.

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I'm missing my cellphone =(

Can't have that here. Haaay. Oh well.

Reading: Lighthousekeeping by Jeanette Winterson
Listening to: Wasting My Time by Default
Watching: my computer screen scream
Feeling: quasi-happiness